The last couple of months at work I have been busier than ever before (over a sustained period, at least). I am very used to working longer than average hours and putting in the effort to get through whatever deadlines are approaching but this project has been different. The sheer volume of work that our team of two needs to do is overwhelming and our skillset is relatively specialised which has made it very hard to find anyone to help us out. Added to this, the priorities of our work change on an almost hourly basis which means lots of stopping and starting (something that I find quite difficult to cope with).
Immediately after the Christmas break I was finding all of this quite depressing and stressful. I’ve always had a pretty strong work ethic; I always want to do a good job on any piece of work that I take on and see things through to their conclusion. I don’t like letting people down. On the other hand, if you asked me what the ten most important things in my life are right now then my job wouldn’t make the list. Of course, it is important from the point of view of enabling other things in my life but it is not important in itself right now. So a couple of weeks ago I thought quite hard about this and realised that I had to take a more relaxed attitude to my work. Not slacking off – I still work the same hours – but accepting that I can only do so much and that getting stressed about the things that aren’t getting done helps nobody.
This small change in perspective has been rewarding so far. I still have good days and bad days, but I feel much happier with what I’m doing and what I can achieve. I’m finding that somehow I’m able to appreciate other aspects of life better at the moment as well – spending time with friends, listening to music, really appreciating the moments. There are still another couple of months left on the project so I hope the feeling lasts. After that I’m going to need the mother of all breaks. Anyone want to come to Vegas?